I used to be on msn 24/7 like literally left it running all day long. I've since found better ways to occupy my time and sign on every now and again to catch up with my friends which I enjoy. I don't know why I turned it on this particular afternoon, I had about 5 minutes before I had to be somewhere but signed in for the hell of it. Up popped a window with a "hey you" and a smiley face! Wow! Talk about a blast from the past, I briefly dated this guy years ago over a few months, I really really liked him, we had amazing chemistry and good times but it didn't work out and we went our separate ways. He's recently separated which explains his sudden contact with me, he's asked me to go out for a drink which I'm sure I will, neither of us is in a position right now to go that route again so it would be a friendly drink and I'm totally up for that as we always had a lot of fun and tons of laughs.

Not but two days later I see another window pop up on msn "you there" it asked. I'm staring at the name of the person thinking "you've got to be fucking kidding me"! This guy was more recent, a year ago to be exact, he treated me horrendously, constantly cancelling our dates, rescheduling, just an all around narcissistic douche who only cared about himself. He wanted to apologize for the way he had treated me which I welcomed, but told him it didn't really matter now as I was never going to make plans with him ever again. We chatted for a while, friendly banter, I try not to hold grudges and it was big of him to admit his douchebaggery but I honestly can't imagine seeing this person ever again.

Gotta love good ole technology!

Enjoy the weekend, it was soooooo warm and lovely here like 3 degrees or something for a few days then BAM it's minus who knows what today with 50km winds and we're getting 5-10 cm of the white shit tomorrow! Booooo!

This made my day, I laughed soooo hard when I watched this! Seriously it's 16 seconds, check it out! Enjoy the weekend everyone!!!

Ha! I saw this sign outside of a chuch and just had to take a photo! It almost makes me want to go there.......almost!

I watched a few episodes of Intervention this evening and started to laugh, not that addiction is funny but all I could think about was Rawbean once commenting "How can these people not know that they're on this show???" It's true, WTF, maybe they're too high to notice! It's been on for years, it's not like it would be a big surprise! "What do you mean I'm on Intervention" insert perplexed face!

I popped in to visit my friends cats after work as she is away and didn't the fire alarm start doing that loud "BEEP" "BEEP" every few minutes. Do you think I could find a chair high enough to hoist me up? Nope! I even tried pushing the couch under it and still could not reach. I called my friend who lives like 25 minutes away, it's freezing cold, dark and snowy and the lovey man showed up! He was shaking his head and laughing at me. It took him all of two seconds to change the battery, I thanked him and said good-bye, then I walked into one of the front rooms and saw a big ass ladder, DOH! I'm not telling him that! I seriously looked EVERYWHERE but that room! Worst looker ever right here!!

Apparently we're supposed to get some big ass storm over the next few days! Fingers crossed we get a snow day or two out of the deal! That would make me a very happy kitty! Sleeping in, flannels, tea and a good book *sigh*

Things are running much more smoothly than last week so Amen for that! The cellphone is fixed (Bell is still dead to me), I am the proud owner of a Toyota, it hasn't snowed too much lately and my cold is obviously gone! Woo hoo!

I can't believe I'm going to admit this but I think I'm going to give good ole Weight Watchers a try. Yes you read that correctly! I'm not gigantic but I'm not a skinny mini either and while I have the books that my lovely friend let me borrow, they're not doing the trick. I need to be accountable to someone other than myself or a friend, someone to shame me and tsk tsk me if I don't show some progress. It's worked for a few people that I know so why the heck not give it a whirl?!? Has anyone else out there tried the program and what were your thoughts?

I'm active, I love to go for bike rides and hike and spin and all that jazz but I also love to eat out at restaurants. I mean hello what's better than some veggie korma and naan? Seriously if I didn't go to the gym I'd probably weigh like 300 pounds (Not that there's anything wrong with that! Quick what show is that from?!?)! I have the exercising down pat I just need to get the food part together! Why oh why must a deep fried mars bar taste SOOOOOO delightful!

Anyway have a great weekend everyone! I plan to pick up my car tomorrow (YAY!) and quel surprise go out for some Thai food with a friend and sit and watch Inception in our comfies at his place. Like I'm not going to eat yummy food until I join...pfffff!!!

It has been a bit of a whirlwind week to say the least. Let's see, in no particular order I found out my car is dying, I got sick, my 5 month old cellphone broke and oh someone copied my bankcard and tried to get lotsa moolah out of my account and now there's a snow storm.... les sigh!

My car has been acting up forever, I thought my transmission was pooched so I took it in to be examined. I never did hear back about the tranny but I did get a laundry list of things that needed to be fixed and one page titled "DANGER". So needless to say I've started to test drive new cars. I think the Mazda 3's are sexy (the older ones circa 2008 not 2010, I don't think the newer ones are sexy at all) but might actually go for a practical Toyota! Who would have thunk!

Everyone around me last week was coughing and sneezing and germy, try as I might I could not avoid the inevitable, I got sick too! It started out as a head cold but quickly turned into a sore throat blah blah. I'm feeling much better now which is shocking. When I should have been sleeping and going to bed early I was staying up till 3am watching a marathon of some show called Inmates (2 days in a row) I had never seen before. It was fascinating!

I'm almost too angry to even discuss the cellphone bullshit! Colesnotes version: I got a BB 5 months ago, the screen went white, Bell refused to fix it under the warranty saying it was "accidental damage" and suggested I had dropped it or did something to break it meanwhile the damn thing was sitting on my desk at work and poof the screen turned white! Anyway my year long warranty does not cover such a thing and I had to spend $155 to get the screen fixed as they refused to do anything about it (other than try to sell me some shitty phone at a discount that would have cost them more than it would have to fix my damn phone for free!!!!) I've been with Bell for 14 years, they can kiss my ass at the end of my contract! They are dead to me!

The bank card/account being compromised was interesting, I found out by fluke when I looked at my bank book. Hmmm I thought to myself "I didn't take any money out today" so I called the bank. Turns out someone got my info and was withdrawing money at 2:30 in the morning, the fraud unit caught the thievery after the first transaction and immediately shut my card down to allow deposits only (which was good because the person tried a few more times to take out larger amounts). The thing that I don't understand is I found this all out at 6pm the next evening.....on my own......ummm WHY didn't anyone A)call to tell me this was happening and B)let me know that I would not be able to withdraw funds. What if I had bought gas (which I NEVER do with my bankcard ironically enough for this exact reason) after the bank had closed and tried to pay with my debit card "oh gee sorry Mr. gas man, I can't pay you but I don't know why"!!! Or what if I was going on vacation and needed to take out money and it was late at night?!? On one hand I'm grateful they caught everything soooo quickly, on the other I'm scratching my head wondering why the fuck no one called to tell me this happened or that I wouldn't be able to take money out until I went to the bank to change my info.

And then there's the storm, I had no idea it was even supposed to snow until everyone around me today was like ohhhhh 20 cm's ohhhhh you have a long commute ohhhhhh.....UGH!!!! On the bright side maybe just maybe tomorrow will be a snow day!!!!!

I had a great holiday but feel like I need more time off just to recoup from all of the socializing and very late nights! I'm still absolutely knackered! I suppose my internal clock is all out of whack and those very late nights make it very hard to get to sleep at a reasonable hour on a work night! I was up till 4am staring at the ceiling last night....dum di dum....

I know a lot of people are summarizing 2010 and I've enjoyed reading all of those posts but I'm not sure I have much to say about mine really. I didn't go on any big trips though I did see those Furries in PA, I continued on with my goal list which pushed me to try new things, I ventured out into the dating world and went on far more dates this year than I ever have before; some good some odd, I laughed, I cried and in retrospect 2010 was a good year! I've tried to spend more time on me and the way I view life. Sometimes I sweat the small stuff so to speak when in the grand scheme of things the irritants in my life are mere peanuts compared to what's actually going on in the world. The problem with growing more aware of myself and my thoughts and wanting to be a happier person is that I've noticed many people around me who are still sweating the small stuff. They complain non stop, they're negative and debbie downers 90% of the time, they yell and fuss about nothing really. I'm not sure I want to be around such energy anymore.....

I usually make one resolution or ambition as Claire calls it (I love that!) and this year I resolved to meditate 3 times per week minimum and threw in a 2nd to not get so defensive as I find from time to time my little ego gets a big miffed for no reason at all. It should all be water off a ducks back as they say!

Of course there are other things that I will try to do but those two will be my main focus. I'd also like to go to the gym regularly, read more often, keep a gratitude journal, take my bloody vitamins that have been wasting away in my cupboard and of course just enjoy life to the absolute fullest! We only have one and it should be lived with love and happiness! It's taken me 32 years but I think I'm finally getting it!!!

Every year my friend has a party which is normally held on Boxing Day IE the day after Christmas. This year he had to hold it the day before Christmas Eve due to his work schedule which made for a very tired Miss Ash come the 25th as I had another gathering on the 24th. It's been one get together after another and there are still a few more coming up this week, I'm absolutely knackered just thinking about them. I'm also not 19 anymore and after that first party I was a complete lump of uselessness all day long. I wasn't hungover at all, just sooooo tired! Apparently getting in at 4am after some cocktails is not what adults should do if they want to accomplish anything the following day; Especially when that day is Christmas Eve eek!

I've been eating like an absolute pig ... literally, all week! I went to PP's to visit some friends and it was all I could do to keep my pants done up and on! There were cookies and cupcakes and cake and pavlova (yummmmm).....she even gave me a plate to take home (cause that's what I need) and a yummy spicy shrimp dish! Sooooo good but I'm soooo full!!

So it's been a busy holiday and will continue to be so for the remainder of the week it seems. It's funny like I want to complain about it and whinge about how tired I am but if I really think about it....how lucky am I to have such great friends.....to have lots of wonderful people to visit and have laughs with and share good times and fatty foods with it makes it all worthwhile! For some people this is a terribly sad time of year and it's all they can do to get through the holidays, so I really am a very lucky girl! I know a family who suddenly lost a loved one a few days before Christmas which is really awful and I can guarantee they are far more tired than any one of us. Tomorrow we say goodbye and I can't even imagine the depth of pain they are going to feel, but they will be surrounded by loved ones and great friends and maybe even some fatty foods, though I'm not sure any of those things will help.....

......I am a very lucky girl!

Me and the gals went to see the Tim Burton exhibit which showcases 700 pieces of his work last weekend! Some decades old some more recent but man what a trip!! I was like a child in the room "Oh my God look at that" pointing, smiling, laughing.....wanting to take everything home with me!

I don't want to spoil the exhibit for those who are going to go but I will say that there were soooo many wonderful things to look at! I totally forgot that Burton directed Beetlejuice when low and behold I came upon a sandworm from the movie....loved it!!! The "hands" from Edward Scissorhands sit nicely in a case as do the razors from Sweeny Todd! I'm in LOVE with the Nightmare Before Christmas and was excited to see many heads of Jack and of course the figure of santa made me laugh with his skinny legs and huge body! It was such a treat to see all of my favorite things from the big screen in one room and the exhibit also showcased Tim's sense of humour perfectly! In a room off to the back are old drawings and sketches from when he was younger and not only my pals and I but a few older women were laughing and laughing and laughing at the sketches and titles! There's one called "girl listening to man with bad breath" that made me howl cause the woman's face is fucking hilarious! There was also a letter Burton wrote to Johnny Depp regarding a line from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory "what if he says something along the lines of...." and goes into the quote about cannibalism which again made me laugh out loud!

I adore Tim Burton and his quirkiness, uniqueness and morbidness! He's an absolute genius and it was such an honour to be able to get up close and personal with his work and to get a tiny glimpse into that wonderful head of his! Now if I could only sneak Jack past the security guards, I'd be all set!!!

A few of my favorite things:

I just bought this makeup set from Sephora during the Black Friday extravaganza. I thought it was about time I stepped out of my routine with the usual eyeshadow I wear and step it up a notch. These colours are all super shimmery and sparkly and fun! I also love the packaging with the pop up fairies, can you say cute!!

Mmmmm I bought these soy candles at a show I went to recently with LD and damn do they smell good! I bought Creamcycle, Peppermint and Sugarbush Maple yummmmm! The cool thing about them is that not only are they candles but the melted wax doubles as massage oil.

Okay okay I've somehow become obsessed with Sephora! I've always wanted to try smokey eyes and thought I would fail miserably so what better way to try it than a step by step kit; foolproof hopefully! I also wanted to branch out as far as my nail polish is concerned, seriously if you look in my drawer you'll see pink, another shade of pink, hmmmm light pink, bright pink, maybe a red one.....I need more variety so I bought this goldish coloured one and this blueish coloured one. It's funny cause I thought the bluey one was ugly in the bottle and told LD to try it on as a joke only I loved it! Oh man and that hand cream that's sideways is by a company called Cake.......it actually smells like icing. I seriously want to eat my hands every time that I put it on! It's also thick, I like thick hand cream not that watery crap so I'm totally in love with this new lotion!

I'm a bit of a nerd, I saw this product on Dr. Oz and thought, meh why not give it a try. It's an antioxidant booster and one drop is supposed to be the equivalent of 15 cups of green tea. Guess where I bought it......that's right Sephora!!!! My points must be racking up like crazy at that place!

Oh man, now I'm obsessed with this Cake brand! I just found a nice big bottle for super cheap at Winners! Mmmm it's hand lotion in "baked citrus" this one smells like lemon cookies! I can't take it, I'm going to have to eat something sweet or start licking my arm!

Speaking of sweet, we went to Eat N Park (what an odd name) in PA for breaky before we ventured home. What better drink to have with your eggs than a Pumpkin Pie Milkshake! Look how much it actually resembles the photo! It was soooooooooo good!!!!

I'm not sure when I became 90 but I'm currently obsessed with Swarovski's Crystaline Collection! I went onto their website looking for a pair of shiny black earrings and came out with a wish list for fancy tea light holders and bowls.

The small version of this bowl is a mere $400! I actually went to the store to take a peek and it is quite tiny compared to the large bowl. I mean really, if you're going to spend that much on a tiny bowl why not go all out and get the $800 one!
These gems are quite pricey as well as far as tea light holders are concerned. Let's just say they start out with 3 digits right off the bat! Eek!

I remember my friend H had asked for a grill for his birthday at age 25, we're getting old he said and this is how he could tell! He no longer wanted fun or frivolous things he wanted something practical. I'm well aware that $800 bowls are not practical but they sure are pretty!

And if it's a toss up between a hot stone massage and a tea light holder........I'm going for the massage, it's cold and snowy out there! I somehow managed to get my arse out of bed early and made it to the 9:30am spin class and took this lovely photo on my way there. That's dedication my friends as it's the perfect day to stay in bed and drink tea especially when you're on holidays and don't have to go out! There's an 8:30pm yoga class that I wanted to try, they have earlier ones but I would be a total beginner and would prefer to try the beginner class. It's just sooo late and I'd imagine by that time I'll have my flannels and fluffy socks on with a nice big cup of hot chocolate in my cute little hands! Winter is officially here and I still hate it!

Sorry I've been MIA for a bit, it's just been super busy around here. I decided to step out of my comfort zone and that seemed to take up every ounce of energy that I had. It's over now *phew* so we'll see what happens. I'm not writing about it in full right now, maybe later!

I also went on my annual shopping extravaganza to the States for Black Friday shopping! Last year I bought everything under the sun, this year I cooled it down a bit and didn't spend too much. I bought some cute earrings, a necklace, super comfy slippers, a make up set that I love, a book, a sweater that's kinda different and of course running shoes at 8am as my feet were on fire. Hilarious, buying an item to facilitate more shopping! We started early this year 3am, and went until about 1:30pm, had lunch and continued on till 5:30pm. We went to see Burlesque that evening *yawn*! I know I know most of you are going to say "why the fuck would you go and see that anyway".....I like singing and dancing and musicals....but not this one, it was sooooo predictable and some of the songs they sang were like filler. And some douche in the theatre kept texting, literally every 5 mins I would see his bright screen! If he had been closer to me I would have yelled at him or thrown LD's popcorn at his head. I'm all for technology but honestly it's turned some people into rude little monsters, talking on the phone while the cashier is checking them out, texting in the theatre, talking loudly in public so everyone can hear...ugh!

I'm officially on vacation for a few weeks and am doing absolutely nothing today! I woke up to snow, yes snow *sniff* so it's the perfect day to stay in bed, drink hot chocolate and clear out my Tivo. It is also World AIDS Day and Starbucks is giving 5 cents of every drink purchased to The Global Fund to Fight AIDS. So who am I kidding, I'll definitely be heading to starbucks (perhaps in my jammies) to support this cause and I think you should too!!!

So I'm finally back to feeling like a regular human being again. It's amazing how one slight movement can put me out for days at a time. I remember once picking up an empty grocery bag off of the floor and putting my back out for 5 days. It's hard to explain to those who do not have such issues but it can actually be debilitating for days at a time. I've tried to be careful over the years, bend at your knees, pick things up properly but every once in a while BAM I feel it go and my heart sinks as I know I will be in severe pain and have limited movement for who knows how long; sometimes it's a day or two other times closer to a week. It's probably been close to a year since I've put it out this badly, so at least I'm lucky in that respect.


It's actually quite interesting though how much I take for granted in my every day life when I'm feeling good. It doesn't matter if I drop something I can just pick it right back up, I can hop in and out of the tub, I can drive wherever I want, do whatever I want but when I'm hurt EVERYTHING is a gigantic chore. Seriously, you know it's bad when you go to the washroom and have to think "how the fuck am I going to .... you know....wipe..."! Okay TMI!!!


I was once talking to a woman pushing a man in a wheelchair and she had asked me if there was another way to get to a certain street without having to go down a very steep and busy hill. Unfortunately there was not and I felt terrible for the two of them. I remember her saying that we don't think of such things until we're faced with such difficulties and it's true. I myself would just walk right down that hill without a second thought and yet for them it was going to be next to impossible to get down that same hill.


I'm certainly not comparing my back issues to the man in the wheelchair but it's interesting how we go about our every day lives and it's not until we're faced with a difficulty that we realize how important our silly everyday movements are. I remember laying in bed day 2 of my pain and trying to no avail to get comfortable. Every movement sent what felt like stabbing electric shocks all over my body and yet while I was in pain I was still thankful that I could feel that pain. There are others who are not so lucky and I'm sure would give anything to be able to feel again, however unpleasant it may be. So I think about that and how grateful I am that while I'm in a hell of a lot of discomfort, it will pass and I will go about my life as before.

That will be the first entry of my Gratitude Journal......I'm thankful that I can feel!

As most of my close friends know, don't bother lending me anything that you want back in the near future! I have a tendency to borrow movies and books and then I hold onto them, sometimes for a few months, sometimes for a year without ever looking at them again. Oops! I have to be in the mood to want to sit down and watch a certain movie or to read a certain book. I had some time this weekend, lots of time to be exact to lay around and do just that as I really did a number on my back. I've been out of commission for a few days (and counting) and thought I might as well take advantage of some down time and watch a few flicks!

"This is a story of boy meets girl. The boy, Tom Hansen of Margate, New Jersey, grew up believing that he'd never truly be happy until the day he met the one. This belief stemmed from early exposure to sad British pop music and a total mis-reading of the movie 'The Graduate'. The girl, Summer Finn of Shinnecock, Michigan, did not share this belief. Since the disintegration of her parent's marriage she'd only loved two things. The first was her long dark hair. The second was how easily she could cut it off and not feel a thing. Tom meets Summer on January 8th. He knows almost immediately she is who he has been searching for. This is a story of boy meets girl, but you should know upfront, this is not a love story."

( From 500 Days of Summer)

The first film I watched was 500 Days of Summer and I really really enjoyed each and every moment as it was unique and yet portrayed characters that everyone can relate to. I loved the split screen where they showed the "Expectations" and the "Reality" of what the character wanted to happen and what actually happened during a party. I liked that it wasn't a typical romantic film but showed a more realistic view of relationships. It didn't follow a sequence of events but rather went back and forth between various days throughout their time together. I was rooting for Tom the whole time and have actually felt like him at certain points in my life, maybe that's why I wanted him to come out on top so badly! On the flip side I could also relate to Summer and how she was feeling, she was upfront with what she wanted or more like what she didn't want and thus the story goes. I also must do a shout out to the soundtrack umm hello who doesn't love the Smiths and I love love love that song There Goes the Fear by the Doves!

The 2nd film I watched was Across the Universe and must say I was rather disappointed. I wasn't sure what to expect as I wasn't sure what exactly the movie was about, I just recall seeing a trailer for it and thinking that it looked interesting. In reality it just didn't do anything for me and I found myself checking the time to see how much longer it was going to be on for. Don't get me wrong there were some visually captivating parts and artsy fartsy scenes that I quite enjoyed. Some of the songs fit brilliantly and really captured the emotions of the characters and yet others I found fell flat. The army scene was quite cool, I liked the end of Strawberry Fields and the following clip I quite enjoyed as well. But as a whole I found it was hit and miss for me.

Ugh ohhhhhh that's the weather forecast for tomorrow! I'm a smart cookie and had *sigh* my snow tires put on last week so I'll be ready for the fluffy stuff shall it fall. I don't particularly enjoy winter what with the chill, slush and ice! It makes me want to hibernate for a few months, why just this morning I could not get out of bed as I was sooooooo warm and cozy. It was still dark out as it shall be from now on (daylight savings time this weekend) and my head rested on my pillow far past my alarm which is a rarity.

Rather than mourn the end of summer and fall, I shall try to look on the bright side and give thanks to the comforts that winter brings!

The leaves changing colour

I get it I get it, this is still a fall photo.......I have to ease myself into this you know!!!

Mmmmmmm hot chocolate with marshmallows! I tend to drink a lot of tea during the cold months but also enjoy a yummy sweet treat like this every once in a while! I also quite enjoy drinking out of horrendously over sized mugs mmm mmmm mmmmmmmmm!

I love love love sitting by a toasty fire! Inside, outside, wood burning or electric I love them all! Just last week I was sitting with a friend catching up, the room lit by nothing but the glow of a fire, it was heavenly!

I also love to slip into my comfies aka lulu sweats (they're like my uniform in the winter) and watch the snow fall out the window, I find it mesmerizing and strangely comforting. I do not have any desire to actually venture out into the snow and yet I can still appreciate its beauty.

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I do plan to stay active this winter and would like to go skiing more often than I do ummm hello once in 15 years just doesn't cut it!!! I just bought a 20 class pass to a yoga studio and I swear to you all that I am giving that damn P90X an honest try!

Cheers to winter, bring it on!!!