I saw this on Claires blog and thought it was a cute idea. I hope she doesn't mind that I borrowed it!!

This Week

Feeling: Anxious and nervous!

Thinking: About the future....

Making: Possibly a pig out of a sock for a little person! If it turns out I'll post a photo!

Doing: Some research online to figure out why my ipod decided to randomly die one day whilst charging. One moment it was fine, the next poof it wouldn't turn on. Tips are welcome!

Reading: I'm embarrassed to say I'm not reading anything other then the news online and catching up on blogs! I have a stack of books waiting for me! Some things never change LOL!

Writing: Lots of letters at work! Canada Post was on strike recently and I wasn't able to send out anything via mail. Now it's time to catch up!

Watching: A new show called Love Bites! I've only seen 2 episodes but I'm really enjoying it thus far. Also So You Think You Can Dance has started back up, woo hoooo! I love the creativity that goes into the choreography and how many of the dances send shivers up and down my spine they're just so raw with emotion. I love that show!!!

Eating: Oh man it seems like everything in sight!!! I've had pizza and Cold Stone ice cream and Japanese food......

Drinking: Beer! I've been REALLY good lately, I rarely go for drinks blah blah blah but the past few days have been different. I had an all day vball tourney where I enjoyed a few bevvies and then attended an unplanned pool party the next day that turned into a 9 hour event. On Friday I will be partaking in my annual Canada Day tradition with my pals and will be sipping a cold one at 11am until we can't take anymore! We usually last until 11pm or so! I look forward to it every year, it's supposed to be sunny and gorgeous out and we always have such a great time laughing and catching up! Perfect patio weather so I'm excited!

Listening: To the Foo Fighters! I tried to get tickets to see them but all the seats left were shit! I'm actually considering going down anyway and buying tickets on the street.....who does that!?!?! Oh right, my friends did once in NYC, sold their real tickets for "better" seats....the better seats turned out to be fake! On second thought, maybe I won't go down!

I've also been listening to a lot of Nouvelle Vague lately!





Working: On loving and accepting my body! I've lost 25.1 pounds to date and I feel amazing! I love my curves and how they look in my new clothes! There's a spring in my step (who says that!!!) and I'm feeling waaaayyyy more confident and sexy!

Wishing: Peace for my feline companion. Her tumour has become unmanagable and even though she's still playful and gorgeous as ever it's not fair to keep her on this earth any longer so an appointment has been made. It's a bit harder as she was my Aunts cat and when my Aunt passed away I found some solace in knowing that she had loved and cuddled the same furry creature I was now able to hold. It was like there was a living breathing piece of her still with us....

Looking forward to: My vacation! I'm not actually going anywhere exotic or exciting per se but I will have 2 weeks off to do as I please starting Friday. I have plans to see Billy Elliot and dinner with PP, also a trip up north to the place where they sell my favorite turtle brownies nom nom nom! Who knows I might be spontaneous and head up to Cedar Point one day or just lay around and read! I'm VERY excited to get out on my favorite trail by the water and go for a bike ride or a hike and just be one with nature! Tis the season!

Sorry I've been MIA for a little while. I've been feeling a bit down in the dumps lately and haven't felt much like writing. There are some major changes happening in regards to my job, I'm not yet sure of the exact outcome or what's going on but I may be forced to change positions within my agency due to funding cuts blah blah and I'm feeling a bit lost. I love my job and I don't love the other positions that may be available to me so I have some decisions to make. Do I go back to school, do I try to find something else in my field, do I change fields completely?!? I'll know more later........I'm just trying to prepare myself for the next step. I need to have some idea and some direction before everything changes.

I'm unfortunately a creature of habit and change scares the shit out of me. You know how some people thrive on change and embrace it.....I'm the opposite of that. I did try to get a better paying position with the government last year and the interview process was a nightmare for me. It included a 3 hour written test, a 45 min interview in front of a panel of 6 people which included a role play and lots of talk about Legislation......I wanted to die! I did that for the experience and the possibility of making more moolah, but not because I had to.

It's not just about change though, I truly love my job! Over the years I've had the opportunity to take a few hours here and there doing other things within my agency and to gain experience in other areas while keeping my main job. I wasn't happy doing the odd jobs, I actually dreaded some of them and couldn't wait until the contracts were up.

I admire Rawbean and Yrautca who have both made huge decisions and changes regarding their jobs! Instead of feeling lost and sorry for myself I should hold my head up high and get on with it. I know that everything happens for a reason and I should look at this as an opportunity to learn something new and move on to bigger and brighter things. I'm not going to be jobless as I'm guaranteed a position within my agency, I just might have to do something I'm not fond of until I can figure out what it is exactly that I want to do. Who knows, I might go in a completely different direction, Dental Hygienist or Bricklayer anyone LOL??




Before I found out about all of this I made an impulsive, rather pricey purchase! I figured I had lost almost 25 pounds, I don't eat out or drink like I used to and wanted to congratulate myself on sticking with my goals and changing my lifestyle. So I bought myself a vintage Louis.....it's gorgeous and in prefect condition save for a few marks on the bottom and cost way less than a brand new one. I might end up jobless and have no money but at least I'll look good :P