Sorry I've been MIA for a little while. I've been feeling a bit down in the dumps lately and haven't felt much like writing. There are some major changes happening in regards to my job, I'm not yet sure of the exact outcome or what's going on but I may be forced to change positions within my agency due to funding cuts blah blah and I'm feeling a bit lost. I love my job and I don't love the other positions that may be available to me so I have some decisions to make. Do I go back to school, do I try to find something else in my field, do I change fields completely?!? I'll know more later........I'm just trying to prepare myself for the next step. I need to have some idea and some direction before everything changes.

I'm unfortunately a creature of habit and change scares the shit out of me. You know how some people thrive on change and embrace it.....I'm the opposite of that. I did try to get a better paying position with the government last year and the interview process was a nightmare for me. It included a 3 hour written test, a 45 min interview in front of a panel of 6 people which included a role play and lots of talk about Legislation......I wanted to die! I did that for the experience and the possibility of making more moolah, but not because I had to.

It's not just about change though, I truly love my job! Over the years I've had the opportunity to take a few hours here and there doing other things within my agency and to gain experience in other areas while keeping my main job. I wasn't happy doing the odd jobs, I actually dreaded some of them and couldn't wait until the contracts were up.

I admire Rawbean and Yrautca who have both made huge decisions and changes regarding their jobs! Instead of feeling lost and sorry for myself I should hold my head up high and get on with it. I know that everything happens for a reason and I should look at this as an opportunity to learn something new and move on to bigger and brighter things. I'm not going to be jobless as I'm guaranteed a position within my agency, I just might have to do something I'm not fond of until I can figure out what it is exactly that I want to do. Who knows, I might go in a completely different direction, Dental Hygienist or Bricklayer anyone LOL??




Before I found out about all of this I made an impulsive, rather pricey purchase! I figured I had lost almost 25 pounds, I don't eat out or drink like I used to and wanted to congratulate myself on sticking with my goals and changing my lifestyle. So I bought myself a vintage Louis.....it's gorgeous and in prefect condition save for a few marks on the bottom and cost way less than a brand new one. I might end up jobless and have no money but at least I'll look good :P