I use this blog as a sort of record of my life. I try to keep it upbeat and fun but sometimes things happen that aren't so great. I got a phone call a few weeks ago that flipped my world upside down to say the least. It's taken me this long to even process the content but to be honest I still feel like I'm in a state of shock! I don't intend to talk about said phone call but right now I'm struggling with several emotions. I go from feeling sad to feeling angry to feeling completely destroyed to wondering how I'm going to be able to trust again.

I'm hoping that time will help me to heal and I may go and see this woman that I did a class with many years ago. She is very insightful and wise and fun and I'm hoping that she will be able to help me make sense of this all and to help me move on. The last thing I want to be is bitter and resentful I just have to figure out how to open myself up again, to trust fully and completely! In this moment that is not even remotely possible.......I'm hoping to change that in the future!

Right now I just need some hugs!